“Empty your pockets or your bag. What do you carry? “ This is prompt #2 in the book “The Way Of The Fearless Writer” by Beth Kempton. If you have read my previous posts, you know that I am on a journey with the help of this book, to find my inner fire again.
So what’s in my bag? Well, I don’t keep a particular handbag filled with things. Everytime I go out, I choose a bag, and put in my wallet, phone, a handkerchief, my keys, a notebook and pen and maybe a small bottle of water.
Inside my wallet, I have my cards, some cash, bandaids, a small packet of passport sized photographs (because you never know when you need them) and my SOS pills for migraines and allergies.
I hate carrying too much stuff. I want to be as free as possible and travel as light as I can; which is funny because while what I carry physically is light, what I carry emotionally is very heavy.
That is a burden I can’t seem to let go of. How do I set the pain and the regrets of the past aside? How do I forget and forgive? How do I stop the incessant chatter in my mind, specially in the quiet of the night? How do I release the trauma and pain from my body and become lighter in body, mind and spirit?
I don’t know yet!
Perhaps, this book, “The Way Of The Fearless Writer”, with its prompts will help me delve deep down and find the courage to pull out and get rid of the muck and allow my true light to shine.
In my experience, the trauma you lived with, always stays within you, stuck to the many grooves of your brain, refusing to leave and let you live in peace. The happy, pleasant memories disappear with time, but the difficult ones hang on. I haven’t been able to let go of the emotional baggage I have carried for so many years. Things that gave me tremendous stress years ago, haunt me till date, in my dreams. I can declutter the physical rooms with ease, but the mental rooms…barely. 🙁
Hugs, Sunita. It’s so good that you are using these prompts to find your inner fire (I liked these words!). I hope you are able to understand yourself better through writing, and also find the strength to let go of the emotional burden and live free.
Bless you for finding your lightness and freedom. It will come. I am sure.